It’s been over three years since my last update. A lot has happened since then.
The last time I wrote on this blog I had just lost a job I had been at for five years.
I found a new job immediately after in a field I was passionate about. Finally, I could grow my photography skills. And my people skills got better, too.
I learned a lot about photography. I learned how to set up the camera and put up all the decorations and backdrops and compose a photo. I was editing photos, relearning everything about Photoshop, answering phones, putting together photo packages, doing odd jobs around the office, all that good stuff. In the beginning it was exciting. Then it was overwhelming.
A month after I started the secretary/photographer/editor job I had another life changing event. I found out I was pregnant, and although I was so excited, I was also petrified. But it was an easy pregnancy. (It was the delivery I was really scared of. That’s another story for another time.) I was in a constant state of anxiety all the time during my pregnancy because of this job, so to this day I feel like I didn’t get to enjoy my pregnancy. Now I can look back on parts of it and feel like I can appreciate it, but I couldn’t then.
I don’t know, given the right circumstances maybe I could have done it better. But the best I gave felt like it was never enough. There was just too much going on at one given time there that I couldn’t keep up.
Anyway. On to better things.
On August 3, 2021 I had my beautiful baby girl, Gwen, two days before my 30th birthday. It was the best, albeit most tiring and painful birthday ever. But I wouldn’t change it for anything.
Now that baby will be two in a few months. Where did the time go?
This corner of the internet has seen so many changes. I’m going to change it one more time. I don’t want to call this a mommy blog, but I’m going to play around with a few new mommy related ideas for it. I’ve already changed the name to Gandalf the Brunette, which leaves it open to other things, too, namely my Lord of the Rings obsession that I’m going to definitely pass on to Gwen. My efforts will be documented here. 🙂
One idea is to make this blog part of my Gwen Chronicles. I read a funny thing the other day, probably on some friend’s Facebook page or on some meme or funny video, that said two year olds are the main character. This is true. Gwen has her own little personality now, and her own sense of humor. I thought it would be fun to document some of the things she does and says here.
For example: Gwen is basically a sponge these days, as she soaks up every little thing we say. Blake said the word “shart” the other day, and now Gwen correlates that with “fart” (or maybe since her letter sounds aren’t fully formed yet she is saying fart but it comes out shart) and every time she let’s a big one rip she grins real big and yells “SHART!” I’ll ask her if she farted and she replies, with that big cheesy grin, “I did!” Or “More!” And she proceeds to scrunch up her face, going all red, and tries to push another out.
It’s adorable. She’s adorable. I know everyone thinks that of their babies. Babies are just… adorable.
She’s getting so big, so she’s not really a baby anymore, but I don’t think she’ll ever stop being baby. If she wasn’t so smart, she would probably believe her name was in fact… Baby. But she knows her name is Gwen. Or Jen, according to her.
So, anyway. My baby is my whole world now. Most of my days are pretty amusing. Sometimes frustrating, but rewarding. My toddler is the boss. But at least she thinks I’m great at my job. (Not like she has much to reference to, but you get it.)
Sometimes I get yelled at and hit, and toys are thrown at my face. But I also get kisses and hugs. And she feeds me Cheerios and bananas. Breakfast, lunch, and dinner dates with her are so much better. She’s a good little boss, and my most favorite one out of them all.
Mommy is my favorite life title, and it sounds so much better when it’s spoken by my bossy baby, my daughter, my Gwen. I look forward to every day with her, because every day is something new. 🧡
So here’s to big life changes, new starts, and baby farts. I’ll figure out what this blog is all about soon.
Until then, see you next time.
Gandalf the Brunette 